Hello all. It’s been a while since hasn’t it? I am sorry about that, but I needed some time to deal with things and if you’ve been here long enough you know how much I preach about taking care of yourselves and doing what is best for you always. So obviously I have to take my own advice. Even if I don’t want to.
Thank you for being patient and coming back and being here. It means a lot to me. I had been struggling with what I wanted to write and share with you. I just couldn’t come up with something that didn’t feel shallow or fake. And I hated that. But it sort of helped and then these past few weeks, while they haven’t been the greatest for me, have actually helped me think of some things that I wanted to talk about.
One of those being the dreams we have about our life and what happens. When they come true when they don’t. When they do but not in a way we imagined. When they change and adapt. Or when you feel like you don’t have any dreams at all. And like I have shared in previous posts, whatever you are feeling is okay. There is no right or wrong here. You are your own being and how you feel is probably gonna be different than how someone else is feeling. And that is okay.
I think we are a generation of dreamers. All our lives we’ve been told to have plans for our lives, our futures, and we turned those into dreams. We wanted to be doctors, artists, inventors, have wonderfully decorated apartments and homes we share with loved ones and best friends. We wanted jobs that we wanted. That we thought would be so cool and so much fun. We made plans to travel and see the world. Fall in love and have fun.
But then we grow up. We learn that life is not all travel and fun and falling in love. It’s heartbreak and pain and struggling more often than not. It’s screaming while sobbing. It’s learning that not everything goes the way you may have planned it. And how easily plans can blow up in your face.
And despite all that, we still dream. We continue to dream about what our lives could be like. What we could do and who we could fall in love with. Where we could go or live and what we would do.
It’s hard to not dream sometimes. And sometimes it’s just as hard to dream.
to dream or not to dream
That is the question. It can be easy to get stuck in a pessimistic mindset that stops you from dreaming. You don’t see the point of trying to pretend or anything like that. You tell yourself that it will never ever happen in a million years so why even waste your time thinking about it. And I get that. I really do. I have given up thinking I’ll ever get my dream job because it is just that, a dream.
But… At the same time, life is so much more boring if you’d don’t dream. If you just let reality get you down and hold there. It will suffocate you if you let it.
Basically what I am trying to say is that if you don’t want to have a dream that is okay. If you don’t have a dream that is also okay. But if you ever find yourself dreaming about what-ifs or what could be… let yourself have that. Don’t just ignore it because you think it will be easier. Let your mind have a little break and enjoy it. Maybe it will spark something in you. Encourage you to change something up or try something new. It doesn’t have to be big and scary. It can be small things. Like dying your hair or learning a new skill. Okay, maybe dying your hair isn’t that small but it’s not permanent. It can always change.
Life is constantly changing. So let your mind and your dreams change with it. As you grow and adapt to new things let your dreams grow and adapt as well. Life is constantly changing and even if you don’t want to, you need to change with it.
Here is a little playlist my friend helped me put together when I started talking about this post and I thought I’d share. Yes, it is all BTS songs. They are my favorite and I am not afraid to admit that. And before you start getting all, “It’s in Korean how am I supposed to understand it.” There is this magical invention called Google. Try it out. Hope you enjoy!