These past few months have been… intense. For one reason or another, it’s just been a lot to handle and deal with. Nothing has been easy. And then things got even worse and haven’t gotten better.
Things have started to open up and at the same time close down again. At the beginning of all this, a lot of people were faced with the ‘do I, don’t I’ mentality about tackling all the little things they’ve wanted to try or do. Or the things others feel the need to tell someone else what they should do. Which in turn caused many to stress about not being productive ‘enough’.
But that’s just the thing. You don’t have to be productive all the time. You can take days off. You can relax. You don’t have to fill your day up so every single hour is accounted for.
You can just be.
You can just let things happen as they come up. You don’t have to force anything if you don’t want to. You don’t have to let anyone tell you how to live your life.
On the flip side.
If you wanna do a thing. do the damn thing. if you don’t then don’t. Easy right?
Yeah, I know for some that it’s really not. I totally understand that for some there is just no motivation, no energy, no drive to do anything. I get that because I experience that. Some days it’s really really hard to even want to do the bare minimum let alone anything extra. And then there are the days where you want to do all the things but literally can’t get out of bed or move from your chair or even pull out your pens or paint and paper and just do it. You just sit there and think about what you could be doing. Then you start thinking about the fact that you aren’t doing it. You start thinking that you’re wasting all this precious time.
It’s a painful cycle to get into. And even harder to get out of. Something I try to do to help is either force myself to do small things, small tasks that don’t require much brain power or effort. Like making my bed or just doing a little tidying. And sometimes I just give myself the day to do nothing and just tell myself “I can start over tomorrow.” Or something like that.
I have had good days and bad days during this time. I have revisited some old hobbies and considered some new ones. I started watercolor painting again, I’ve been writing almost every day (obviously not on here, sorry). I’ve been watching anime like crazy. And hopefully, I will be coming out with some posts on what I’ve been watching soon!
I know that this has been a difficult time for a lot of you and I hope that things start to work out or just generally get better for you.