Back in 2017 I wrote a post on Impostor Syndrome, you can find that one here. At the time I had just started my graduate school program and was really struggling with feeling like I ‘belonged’ there. And now I am just a few short months away from graduating with my masters degree and I have been working on applications for positions in my field.
And it has been an unexpected challenge, trying to fill out the applications and write up cover letter’s where I have to brag about myself and skills. I never really liked talking about myself in that sense before.
I also have been fortunate enough to be able to start to work as reference librarian in the library I am at which has been wonderful. It has been a great expereince, getting to learn and know what I might like over something else.
But it has brought up those feelings of not ‘belonging’ again. Of being a ‘fake’ or ‘failure’. Like in my three years of school, I just skated by and I feel like I didn’t learn a single thing. I feel as if I don’t remember anything I studied on or learned about. And now I am working and it’s that fear that I am going to get found out that I don’t know anything or that I am not the right person for the job. That I’m a fraud.
And since I wrote that post, I know… I know what impostor syndrome looks like. I know what little things I can do to help combate it and lessen the stress and worry that comes from it. That doesn’t mean I still don’t suffer from it. That I don’t get to avoid these feelings.
the follow up~
I wanted to write this post since I have been dealing with these thoughts a lot recently and use it as a sort of refresher and other things to do to help deal with it. I think the fact that I realized that I was coming to the end of my program is what really highlighted those feelings. And that even though I was had achieved all that I had, my good grades and I finished my practicum on a high note, it just felt… wrong.
facing impostor syndrome~
The first thing any website will tell you, the first thing I am going to tell you is to acknowledge it. Recognize that these thoughts are part of impostor syndrome. That is the first step in the right direction. Simply acknowledging it can help lessen the stress that comes from them.
It can also set up ways to help reframe your thoughts. Like when you have the thought ” I don’t deserve this” you need to start thinking instead “I worked hard for this” or ” I earned this.”
You could also ask yourself questions like “Is this really helping me?” It probably isnt’t. But now you have a way to fight back.
Something else you could do is reach out. I get that that one is particularly scary. Even I am not that big of fan of it. But… it can be hugely beneficial to you. So text or snapchat your best friend and ask to vent or just talk. Trust me, they will be quick to dispeal any bad thoughts you might be having.
Impostor syndrome is not that rare or unusual of a thing to experience. I would wager that more people deal with it then you may think.
Here are just a few links to some other websites I visited when writing this post that I think you might also benefit from.