~welcome 2020~

Happy New year!

It is officially 2020, the 20s are back. Where are the flapper dresses? The gin mills and back door speakeasy’s? Oof I am excited. (I keep saying this but really… I hardly leave my house.)

Now I don’t like new years resolutions. I don’t like making goals. Because I haven’t ever been able to meet that goal. Really any goal. I have issues with follow through and persistence. Maybe I should work on this by making short goals, like super short goals. And build up from there.

I feel like goals are something I need. I need direction in my life and having goals seem to be a way to help when I feel like I am losing that direction. I just don’t really know how to make goals. But I think I want to try again this year.

It is the first of the year. The beginning of a new year. When everyone is making goals and resolutions for how they are going to do things differently, better, with more dedication or passion. And even though I fully stand behind just starting over whenever where ever, there is something about starting over in the new year.

It’s looking towards an absolute blank slate. Nothing has been set in stone yet, there are no restrictions, no rules yet. We get to create it. Create whatever we want. We can do what ever we want with this new year.

So maybe this will be my year for goal setting. Maybe this year I’ll set small goals. That would be impossible to not meet and build them up from there. Maybe I’ll set a goal or two with no solid end date, rather one that is fluid and can adjust for what I need it to.

I want 2020 to be a year of change for me. Of good changes and positive life experiences. I am tired of constantly living under a cloud and not feeling good. I want to change, I know that I need change, but I find it so hand to grasp sometimes. That this is something that is actually doable for me. I have lived one way for so long I don’t know how to live differently.

But I want to try.

Goals for 2020

  • Lose weight: I know, I know. This is one that so many people have on their list and I have talked about a number of times. But I seriously need to and want to lose weight. Yeah, I could probably be happy the way I am but I am not healthy, so I need to lose that weight. And what has been more difficult is that I did lose the weight before. I lost over 50 lbs. But then I gained it all back. So this time around it has to be more then it was before. It has to include maintaining the loss. This has to include watching what I eat and exercising and more. It can’t just be another diet. It has to be a lifestyle change. The Goal: Lose 50+ pounds by the Fall of 2020 by doing: Exercise at least 4-5 days a week/ Eat about 1500 calories a day (I know this is a good number for me for a daily intake.)
  • Language learning: So this one… Oh this one. Lolz… I am determined to learn another language. The more then merrier really. I have also accepted that this will just take me longer to accomplish because I do tend to get discouraged rather easily. But this is still something I want to do for myself. And maybe I’ll finally get someone to learn with me so it will be more fun. The Goal (For Korean): Finish Talk to Me In Korean Level 5 by the Summer of 2020 by doing: 4-5 lessons a week plus review one day a week. Finish My First 500 Korean Words by end of February, this should only take 50ish days but I am allowing for busy work days or if I forget one day. The Goal (For Japanese): This is currently a work in progress. I sort of know what I need to do in what order, but since I have a better foundation in Korean currently, I am dedicating more of my time to that. But the basics are: Learn the Hiragana by doing: the Tofugu Learn Japanese Guide by when ever I get it done.
  • Feel Happier/Be Happier: I’m cry laughing as I write this. I don’t actually know what I am going to do for this one. I just know it needs to be one of my goals. I said earlier that I feel like I am constantly living under a cloud. I always feel gloomy. I don’t want to be any more. The Goal: To be determined by doing: to be determined.
  • Savings: OK this is another one that is to be determined also, only because I am writing this early and I don’t know how my finances will look this coming year. The Goal: To be determined by doing: to be determined.

So there they are! My “four” goals for the new year. I expect that as things happen and progress that I will have added goals or adjusted them as needed. And there are somethings I am not adding to this just because I view them more as life in general goals versus the “bigger” new years goals.

Here’s the to New Year! Of positive life happenings and good changes to come.

Happy New Year!


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