You ever have that moment when everything just like clicks into place. And you get this feeling of calm that just settles in your bones. Your whole body just lets go of all the tension it’s been holding.
Like an epiphany. An ‘Aha!’ moment. Everything just matches up just right and then clarity comes to whatever might have been bothering you.
I had an epiphany just the other day. About myself, and my life and something I need to do in order to possibly feel happier. And it of course happened in the strangest of ways. Cause that’s the thing about epiphany they happen spontaneously and can happen anywhere. In my case I was working, walking through the infant department and it just clicked. And almost immediately my mind cleared, I felt some of the tension I carry leave my shoulders. I felt calm and at peace. Something I hadn’t felt in such a long time.
What I realized from this moment was that I needed to slow down. In literally everything I do. I constantly feel like I am rushing and pushing to do things or finish things. Or that I have this invisible deadline that is constantly looming and if I don’t reach it by a certain point I am a failure. I really feel this especially when it comes to where I am at life. Like I still live at home, I have no career, I’ve never been in a relationship (this one is more by choice) and I am 24 years old. And while I am working on not comparing myself to my friends and others there is the other part of slowing down and just living my life. And reminding myself that it is OK that these things haven’t happened yet. I can live my life in any way I need to.
I need to remind myself that everything happens when it is supposed to happen. Cause I do sort of believe in fate and all that. I remind myself that everyone’s path is different. Everyone lives different lives. My circumstances are going to be different then my friends.
So it is OK that my life is progressing slower than others. And differently from others. That is just how life is.
I need to learn to stop and smell the roses as it were, and breath. Relax and be content with where I am at in life. Take a step back from the chaos and just be.
So that is what I am going to do! Or at least try to do. The first part of this will be learning to meditate and then meditate regularly. I am hoping that by doing this will help me slow down, and help my mind slow down.
But that is all for today! I hope you enjoyed it and I will see you next time!
… And just because I couldn’t resist, go listen to Epiphany Jin’s solo piece!