I am writing this while sort of kind of out of comfort zone. I am on a train coming home from the BTS concert and boy was that a trip. I expect I have either already posted about my trip or it is coming up soon.
Comfort Zones are Comfortable~
But something I couldn’t help but think about while on this trip was comfort zones. And how often people are telling me I need to get out of my comfort zone. And to a certain degree, I agree with them. But sometimes I can’t help to think about what is wrong with being comfortable. It isn’t as if I don’t live out of my box of a bedroom and don’t leave my house for months at a time.
So what I don’t go further than a 5-mile radius. If everything I need is there what is the point.
I think this, then my mind goes “Because there is so much more out there. There is so much more to experience and explore. And you love to travel. Or at least the idea of traveling.” And here is when my conundrum starts, and I don’t know how to resolve it.
Within the past few months, I have already done a few things way, way outside of my comfort zone. Like driving into Pontiac for my friend’s show. There was no way I was going to miss it and it was one of the best nights of my life. But I was fucking terrified of driving there. And then on the way home, the weather got nasty and ughhh. But I did it and everything was fine.
There is an element of my anxiety playing a role in this. I recognize and acknowledge that most of my fear is irrational but that doesn’t mean I can just let it go. And that is where the attractiveness of comfort zones lies. Let me be comfortable. Let me feel relaxed. Let me not stress and worry about the insignificant details that don’t matter to anyone but my overactive mind.
I know that it doesn’t make sense. I know everything will be ok. I know that. But my mind still overthinks, my heart still races, I still panic. And then I am ok. It is a process. I haven’t learned to avoid it completely, so I just accept that it will happen and work through it knowing I will be ok.
Travel To and Fro~
I have always loved the idea of travel. And I say the idea of travel mainly because I tend to get travel sick. Never full on sick, but the nausea and headaches and jet leg come at me like a freight train. And like I said, I get anxious easily. But who doesn’t want to see the world and experience and learn about new cultures?
In the past two years or so I have taken four trips that have pushed me out of my comfort zone in one way or another. I traveled on a plane alone to visit my best friend, first in Connecticut, the second time we meet up in Portland. This was my first time navigating an airport on my own, and I was freaking out the entire time about security. Just because I was. It was totally fine.
Then in November of last year, I took my first train to Chicago to see my favorite KPop group B.A.P perform. That one was a little more intense as I was completely solo. No friends, nothing. There are perks of traveling alone. I don’t have to worry about making a fool of myself when I have a freakout. But then I tend to freak out just a little more when I am on my own.
And then the most recent was my trip to Chicago (again) to see BTS. I was nervous about some of it only because I was with my friend and felt responsible for both of us since I had been here previously. And everything turned out totally fine. We had a great time, nothing went wrong. (Except being next to a train track (which wasn’t too bad) and a comedy club that put a fucking table in front of our door…) I felt like I let loose a little more and just enjoyed myself. It was nice.
I guess the point of me writing this post was to acknowledge that while I love my comfort zones and I doubt I’ll be leaving them extensively anytime soon, I feel fewer worries and stressed out when I do or when I will.
And for anyone else out there who just really likes their comfort zone, that is totally fine! Take it one step at a time and when you’re ready you’ll know. And then you’ll be unstoppable.
What was your first experience out of your comfort zone? Let me know down below!