*May Contain Spoilers*
I have so many feelings about this book. I finished it and had so many thoughts and feelings filling my mind I couldn’t create a coherent thought or sentence. I had to meditate just to calm myself down. Let me set the scene. I had just finished Our Chemical Hearts by Krystal Sutherland and a really long day at work. It was about 6 or 7 o’clock when I started this one. And I finished it close to midnight the same evening. I couldn’t put it down. I couldn’t stop reading. This is going to be a very hard review for me to write but I feel the need to.
First of all, this book is amazing. I fell in love with Jennifer Niven’s writing, the story and the characters. She takes something so real and so misunderstood and underrated and puts the hard, sometimes unaccepted, truth out there. She holds no punches back and I felt every single one.
Jennifer Niven writes the story about Theodore Finch and Violet Markey. Two complete opposites who meet in an almost tragic event and from then on they are intertwined. Finch is quirky and confusing. He is adorable and has secrets he won’t share. Violet is popular and loved. She hasn’t recovered from the recent death of her sister. Together they start an adventure that leads them to each other. Taking solace in each other’s sadness and understanding. And then when Violet starts to live again, experiencing the life she ignored since her sister’s death, Finch leaves his.
The ups and downs. The blackouts and anger. Finch struggles living but finds his moments of peace in Violet. She notices his changes trying to work him out and help when he needs it.
I can’t say that I have yet to recover from this story. Even now while I am writing this I am hit with such a deep sadness and fighting tears threatening to spill. And while it is a heavy sadness I am still in love with this story. I cried through the last 200 pages or so. And not silent tears streaming. Oh no. These were solid tears from sobbing. I had to pause to wipe my tears just so I could keep reading. I knew what was going to happen and I could feel my heart stop.
I can’t write anymore without crying and so here is where I will stop. I am sorry this is short and maybe not the best. It is hard trying to do justice by this one.
I can’t say how proud I am of Jennifer Niven for writing a story that tackles such important topics that society today tries to ignore or avoid. She does a magnificent job and I all I can say is that you need to read this book. You are not alone.